Lesson 15. Keep work and play separate.
It takes so much of me to even put this into words.
When your boss confesses his love for you, do not sleep with him. DO NOT SLEEP WITH HIM. Especially if you plan to keep working there.
So when I got hired, I could kind of tell that my boss was into me. We would flirt and shit but it was never out of line.
About 8 months later, he tells me that things aren’t working out with his girlfriend and he constantly thinks about another girl. I’m helpful af so I’m like “dump her then because that’s so unfair to her. If you’re thinking about the other chick then just ask her out”. I get a random ass text a month later along the lines of what if that girl was you.
And then I totally knew FOR SURE he was into me.
Honestly, he’s a great dude. And if I wanted to go ahead and get married again then I’d so date him.
But I’m all about connections. I’ve felt two very real connections in my life and he wasn’t one even though he’s AMAZING on paper.
To be completely fair, I was completely shit faced AND he kept buying me drinks. So what turned into just a fun time out, quickly escalated.
Also, any guy that brags about his dick is lying. 98% of the time. DONT TRUST IT. Ugh. I was promised “well above average” and got possibly average. Maybe.
At any rate. I knew the next morning when he wanted round two that nothing was there. Nothing at all. I’ve tried. I just can’t make it happen.
Fast forward two months and he’s asked me out again. We were doing so good pretending that it never happened and just low key flirting. Now?! Ugh. Now I have to deal with it and I honestly don’t know what to say.
Trust me when I say that that is a first.
I have no issues with being completely straightforward with guys. None. I’ll tell them exactly what turned me off and keep a moving. Maybe it’s because I work with him? Maybe it’s because I don’t want to hurt his feelings?
It’s just not there 🤦🏽♀️
I’ll have to continue this one because I am sure this will turn into a cluster fuck before it’s all said and done.
Lesson: I obviously need to keep going to my meetings because I’m out of control. Jesus.